With my recent roadtrip for spring break with a couple buddies, it got me thinking. I think it would be pretty neat to hit up all 50 states. I went onto Facebook I remember a long time back to an application called, Where I've Been. I dug that up today and I sure am starting to think it would be fun to check off all the states.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Bi-Losing!
For those of you that are following Charlie Sheen on Twitter (@charliesheen) will understand what the title of my post means. I failed to keep the blog updated like I promised numerous times I would. However, I have a good reasoning behind this. Today was the first time since the beginning of January that I had 1 day, yes 1!!! day, without commitment. I have been so busy with school 5 days a week and work another 4-5 days a week that I haven't found time to myself. I was able to manage a day off today however so I thought I would update the situation.
I am going on two months now of being single. My relationship with Jessica started to fall apart and, to protect the best interests of both of us, I decided that it was best if we went our own ways. It's been a lot harder then I expected, but I believe that it is the right thing for both of us. We had a lot of happy times but it came to a point where the fighting was just too overwhelming. I know this isn't what you wanted to hear, but I figure I would be asked "WHAT HAPPENED" if I didn't say something.
In the mean time, I have been really busy with school and work. I am in my 2nd of 3 semesters of my senior year at the University. I still do not have a clue what I want to do with my degree. My parents are moving coming up when my dad finally finds a new job. It seems right now that the front runners are VA and MI. We have connections in both of those states so it could go either way. I think that I am going to go with them wherever they move. I don't have a lot tying me down here and so I think that looking for a job in another part of the country will be really good for me. The hard part is when? If my parents move before I graduate from the University, I think I will stay here and finish it out and meet them out there. As a 21 year old, I in no means want to hold my parents back. I have told them to find what you can now, I know you want to move, and I will meet you there. As an only child, they take so much strong consideration into everything in my life.
I apologize for the ranting about meaningless stuff on here. The only child thing kind of hurts me in a way too. I have friends but nobody that is willing to in-depth talk about my feelings. They are all about the girl and the "easy-lay" but nothing when it comes to family related things. I feel bad leaving them here. I really do, I have never been good at meeting new people. For instance both of the serious relationships I have been in, have been created through close personal connections. I am scared in a way. I don't have a ton of friends, how am I going to change that in a new part of the country? It is a question that has really bothered me the last few days. I won't have school, so that rules out THOUSANDS of people. If I am unable to find a career, I am going to be stuck with a part/full time job. There are only a handful of people that you meet in a non-permanent job. Will that suffice? Will I be stuck with being friends with whoever my parents encounter?
I am at a point in my life that I am really stuck. I don't want to stay here, especially if my parents leave. I will have nothing. I have a few failed relationships but thats it...no family, a few true friends, and no goals. I really look forward to see what the future has to offer. A part of me wants my parents to leave without me to see what I can come up with. I want to see what's out there for me. If I can't find anything I know it will be right to move.
Recently I have found myself thinking about my past two serious relationships. I truly want to be friends with both. This can obviously include texting over long distances, which it more than likely will be. I just don't want it at a point where it is awkward. I have only had two serious girlfriends so they both mean a lot to me. They both have been a huge part of my life.
I really don't know. I am really stuck. I feel bad for getting this out in a blog post. Not one person that reads this will ever care but it feels a lot better for me to get it off my chest. I am thankful for every person that has touched my heart in this life!
I am going on two months now of being single. My relationship with Jessica started to fall apart and, to protect the best interests of both of us, I decided that it was best if we went our own ways. It's been a lot harder then I expected, but I believe that it is the right thing for both of us. We had a lot of happy times but it came to a point where the fighting was just too overwhelming. I know this isn't what you wanted to hear, but I figure I would be asked "WHAT HAPPENED" if I didn't say something.
In the mean time, I have been really busy with school and work. I am in my 2nd of 3 semesters of my senior year at the University. I still do not have a clue what I want to do with my degree. My parents are moving coming up when my dad finally finds a new job. It seems right now that the front runners are VA and MI. We have connections in both of those states so it could go either way. I think that I am going to go with them wherever they move. I don't have a lot tying me down here and so I think that looking for a job in another part of the country will be really good for me. The hard part is when? If my parents move before I graduate from the University, I think I will stay here and finish it out and meet them out there. As a 21 year old, I in no means want to hold my parents back. I have told them to find what you can now, I know you want to move, and I will meet you there. As an only child, they take so much strong consideration into everything in my life.
I apologize for the ranting about meaningless stuff on here. The only child thing kind of hurts me in a way too. I have friends but nobody that is willing to in-depth talk about my feelings. They are all about the girl and the "easy-lay" but nothing when it comes to family related things. I feel bad leaving them here. I really do, I have never been good at meeting new people. For instance both of the serious relationships I have been in, have been created through close personal connections. I am scared in a way. I don't have a ton of friends, how am I going to change that in a new part of the country? It is a question that has really bothered me the last few days. I won't have school, so that rules out THOUSANDS of people. If I am unable to find a career, I am going to be stuck with a part/full time job. There are only a handful of people that you meet in a non-permanent job. Will that suffice? Will I be stuck with being friends with whoever my parents encounter?
I am at a point in my life that I am really stuck. I don't want to stay here, especially if my parents leave. I will have nothing. I have a few failed relationships but thats it...no family, a few true friends, and no goals. I really look forward to see what the future has to offer. A part of me wants my parents to leave without me to see what I can come up with. I want to see what's out there for me. If I can't find anything I know it will be right to move.
Recently I have found myself thinking about my past two serious relationships. I truly want to be friends with both. This can obviously include texting over long distances, which it more than likely will be. I just don't want it at a point where it is awkward. I have only had two serious girlfriends so they both mean a lot to me. They both have been a huge part of my life.
I really don't know. I am really stuck. I feel bad for getting this out in a blog post. Not one person that reads this will ever care but it feels a lot better for me to get it off my chest. I am thankful for every person that has touched my heart in this life!
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